Tina Knowles Details Her Split From Matthew Knowles Following Decades Of Infidelity, “I Felt Like I Failed”

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Ms Tina Knowles is officially opening up about the roller coaster ride she has been on in her life love!

In her new memoir ‘Matriach’ Tina breaks her silence on the decades worth of cheating she experienced at the hands of her ex-husband and talent manager Matthew Knowles.

Tina revealed that she noticed issues in her marriage from the very beginning. “There were already problems in our marriage that first year.” She explained that Matthew had been a repeat offender in terms of cheating. “But the suspicions I had would get washed away by the fact that our love was stronger than a misstep…It was us against the world, taking on what life brought us.”

Tina says when she became pregnant with Solange she noticed herself reaching a breaking point. “The marriage was deteriorating faster than I could possibly find ways or even reasons to make it work — ­even with the pregnancy,” Tina says she noticed Matthew becoming more reckless and contemplated leaving him.

“I had gotten used to these extremes — incredibly joyous half the time as we shared life’s adventure, then being disgusted and heartsick over how brazen his cheating could get.”

Ultimately she was able to find peace in raising their two daughters Beyonce and Solange so their marriage continued—-despite her own suffering. “I was caught in this dance with him, each doing the same steps over and over: He would cheat or act up, and I would say I’d had enough. He would beg for forgiveness, crying and promising to get better… But this is what married people did, I told myself.”

It wasn’t until 2009 Tina learned heartbreaking news through the media that led to her official exit following reports that Matthew fathered a child outside of their marriage.

Tina says when he tried to speak with her later that day, “I screamed, ‘Get out! Get out!’ like he was some demon. ‘I hate you!’ … my world had exploded.”

The couple officially divorced in 2011 after 31 years of marriage

“I was deeply sad, not about him but about the marriage,” Tina wrote. “I felt like I failed. I failed us, my kids — ­myself.” she tells PEOPLE, that the split ultimately set her free and on a new path.

“In the early days I was very bad at balance,” Tina admitted, “at taking time for myself. When I got to be around maybe 50, I started doing that. And when I got divorced at 59, absolutely. You know, for the first time it was a lot about nurturing myself and healing myself.”