-Tamara’Shanay-
The one year anniversary of beloved rapper DMX ‘s passing is approaching. As everyone continues to mourn the loss of the legendary artist, his fiancée has come forward to reveal her deepest feelings as well!
In a recent interview on the ‘It’s Tricky Podcast’ by Raquel Harper, DMX fiancée and mother to their 5 year old son Exodus, Desiree Lindstrom spoke on her grief since his passing.
“I haven’t moved on. It’s hard you know. It’s really hard . I just take it minute by minute. Some people say you could just take it day by day, but it’s second by second. My life changed so fast in the blink of an eye.”
Desiree goes on to say since X’s tragic passing she’s been focused on their son and bettering herself. She currently enrolled in school to become a esthetician.
“I just want to build myself to be a great mother to Exodus,” said Desiree. “I want him to see that he has a strong mother that can stand up on her own, and I’m just trusting in God through the process. I go up and down with emotions. I have to really force myself to keep it moving, keep going.”
She goes on to explain how she often finds herself leaning on Exodus who is in stable condition as he battles stage three Kidney disease. Desiree says that he is so positive and his outlook on life has provided her with strength.
“Sometimes it’s hard, just looking at him. He has so many different qualities of his father. So when I do shed a tear, he’ll be like, ‘Mommy, are you okay? And I’ll say, ‘You just did something that was like your father.’ And he’s like, ‘Mommy, it’s okay, Daddy’s with God, he’s watching over us. He’s our angel.’ I just thank God that he gave me a son that is like that. He’s just like his dad.”
Further within the interview Desiree shared that the couple had lived together for ten years. Though they were never able to tie the knot she says that they had already lived as if they were married.
“One thing that Earl taught me was, who gives a f— what people got to say about you? I knew that he loved me, he knew that I loved him. I feel like we [were] married. A piece of paper ain’t s—. Our love was real. He was there for me, I was there for him, and people know what the f— it was, period.”
She states that she’s not thinking about dating again at this point in her life.